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It took me a few seconds to part my lips. The dryness of my upper lip's flesh made the lower lip stick to it. So it resulted in me having severely chapped lips. I tried to moisten my lips from time to time, but having no water to drink for days has made my mouth go dry.
My fingers trailed on the wet floor, trying to find a spot where I could find a bit of water to drink. But it was all a mesh of dust and water together. I lit the torch and sent it around the room to find anything useful at the moment. And lying in the same position for days has made me have non-decreasing back pain with a heavy headache. It was all pain in my body. I couldn't even measure where it hurt the most. The only release I got was when Sparkle took charge of our bodies.
The box that had the few sandwiches lay on the ground, empty, next to me. My stomach growled from time to time. I'd never been that hungry in my entire life, my stomach kept on asking for food, and the gastric acid was already digesting the inner walls of my stomach. Maybe it was time for me lay back, defeated.
I lost count of how many days I was inside the room. I realised that it wasn't one day or two days but longer with every passing time. And I had no clue for how long they were planning to keep me in. Also, a small part of my mind thought they might've already forgotten about me, might as well find my dead body in a few days after it reeks of dead meat.
Ugh. Sick.
And as time passed, I felt the flickering light of hope in my heart dying as well. According to what I've heard from Fah, Blue Crystal Pack was capable of hiding many things. So even if Grey comes in search of me, he won't be able to know I was still in the pack. I had no scent, and I had no way out to go find him. I had no one to help me at the moment... The alpha might as well lie to Grey, saying I've run away from the pack. I couldn't think of anything worse than that.
The door to the room opened. I gasped, not expecting someone to come at that time. I thought no one would come in for ages! And finally, I thought maybe I was forgiven for whatever the wrong thing I did, or I thought it was Fah coming to visit me again with food and water. Whoever it was, I felt a glint of happiness in my heart.
I looked at the parted door where someone stood, and I could only see that person's silhouette. With my eyes drooping low because of the tiresomeness, I tried to see who it was. Light poured in when that person came inside, and I could finally see it wasn't a girl but a guy. I guessed it with the build of the silhouette. Still, I couldn't see the person's face.
"How are you feeling?" a voice I never expected to hear asked me.
'Alpha Ren?' I thought.
I slowly looked down at the dirty ground again. Only if I could move my body, I would've walked away. What was he doing there?
"I was gone for only four days, and I heard you are locked in a room the second I stepped into the packhouse. So can you confess what you did?" he asked in a humorous tone.
I bit my lower lip while listening to his words. I couldn't help but get disheartened and sad whenever he made fun of my muteness. It wasn't something I could stop, and neither was my second gender. I always wished I was someone different whom he would have to think twice before making fun of. But no, I was born that way, and it was my choice whether I had to fight for myself or be a cower...
Harshly biting my lower lip repeatedly, I raised my head and looked at the devil. He squinted his eyes as soon as my eyes met with his. I could clearly see all the emotions his eyes held, even in the darkness. It was rage, disappointment, and regret about who knows what. And I was sure that my eyes, too, held great disappointment to see him in front of me instead of someone whom I loved.
He walked closer and crouched in front of me. And it brought me back to the time he tried to push me to his menacing friends who literally tried to rip off my clothes. And it also brought me to the memory of when he pushed me to the pond so I won't burn from the burning hot soup. It made me realise the person in front of me wasn't someone I could ever trust or understand. What was his purpose 'now'?
"So did you have fun secretly meeting that alpha in the woods?" he suddenly asked.
I didn't respond in any way but kept on looking straight into his eyes. If staring were fire, he would've burned down to ashes then.
"What do you see in that shitty person anyway?" he asked again.
'A lot. A lot more than you can even think of, more than you can imagine, more than your tiny heart could bear.' I thought. But again, my body was starting to itch to answer his stupid questions.
"And it's really, really bold of you to think he will accept you! I am pretty sure right now he can't even remember anything about you," he said with a smirk. "You see, Everleigh, us, alphas, we have so many choices out there. Even if we have our mates, everyone is ready to push themselves all over us. He might have too many good-looking ones out there. You had only known him when he came here, his polite side. But have you ever seen him with other people? Are you sure he's not someone who plays around? Do you really think you are worthy of his attention?" he asked.
Every single word he spat out created small wounds inside my heart. Though I didn't want to believe a single word he said, my heart accepted them deep down. My heart admitted how worthless I was, how shitty I was, and how weak I was... And Ren continued talking.
"You might have been only his holiday girlfriend to play with a toy like you when he was bored here for two weeks. Really. He saw how naive you are, and then boom! You are head over heels for him." he said.
I was breathing heavily by the time he stopped talking. There was a good minute of silence as he examined my expressions. A menacing smile drew on his face as he saw miserable feelings gobbling me whole.
"I heard you've been locked here for three days without any food or drink. So I am here to offer you a small deal," he whispered.
I looked at him with wide eyes when his words caught my attention. He softly smiled and moistened his lips with his tongue as if he was carefully forming his words in his mind.
"All you have to do is forget about that shitty arsehole. If he comes for you, reject him," he said.
I quickly shook my head.
"You are taking quick decisions, I see. So you are ready to starve for a few more days and die? Or... take my deal?" he asked.
I squeezed shut my eyes and shook my head again and again. My stomach said the opposite, though. It started grumbling but my heartbeat it up. I wasn't ready to reject the person I loved. But I was prepared to fight for him.
"You will regret this." that was all I heard, and he was gone.
It only gave me another red light.
'Please, Grey. Come here soon, and don't believe a word they say. I am still alive.' I thought, wishing he would hear me. Hoping at least he would feel I was still waiting for him.